I just had to write this post, as I really need to get it off my chest. Over the last seven days I have seriously been considering packing in blogging and just giving up. I’m sure many bloggers go through these sorts of emotions, but maybe not many admit to these feelings of self-doubt.
It all started last week when I attended Blogfest . I came away from my first ever big blogging event with mixed emotions. Part of me was inspired by some of the amazing people I met and heard speak. But another part of me felt totally overwhelmed by the amount of hard work that is in front of me to be any sort of successful blogger.
The award ceremony at the end of Blogfest was an important part of the day, as this recognises bloggers who are successful. When I got home from the event I was keen to sit down and read some of the blogs who either won the awards or who were nominated. After I had done this bit of research I realised that of course, blogging isn’t just about writing reviews and having sponsored posts. What it is really about is connecting with your audience. It seems to me that the way this is done is by either writing in a humourous and connecting way. Or by writing about issues that are engaging or personal to you. Opening up and being honest about the realities of life.
While I was at Blogfest I attended a Round Table session on Mental Health hosted by Aby Moore from You Baby Me Mummy . I really admire Aby because I know how hard she has worked on her blog. She has built a very successful blog up in only eighteen months. Now she uses her expertise and knowledge to help other bloggers. Aby did a critique and blog coaching session for me a few weeks back. She gave me lots of ideas on improvements I could make and how to make my blog more professional.
The Round Table session was really helpful for me as it was a space for fellow bloggers to open up about their mental health issues. Aby did an amazing job at creating a safe and supported environment for bloggers to discuss how their mental health impacts their daily life. Some of the blogger told their personal stories and also explained how writing their blogs also provides an outlet for what they are going through.
My point is that attending this discussion stirred up a lot of emotions in me. This is because four years ago I suffered with post natal depression following the birth of my Daughter. Thankfully now I am well on the road to recovery. Ever since I started writing my blog I have wanted to write a post about what I went through, but because I feel that there is a stigma attached to a health professional suffering with a mental health condition I have held back.
I have heard a lot of bloggers say that have a burning desire to write and that is definitely in me. So my feelings of self-doubt this week were definitely triggered by attending Blogfest and this is not what I was expecting to happen at all. This week I even wrote my post detailing my story of post natal depression, but for now it is going to stay in my draft folder, as I am not ready to publish it just yet.
I have had a good long hard look at what I have done so far with my blog. I have put a great deal of time and effort into it. Newbie bloggers have so much to learn, especially if you have spent your working life in a sector that is so far away from this sort of social media world. After all I work in health care so the whole concept of building your own brand and marketing yourself is a totally new thing to me.
After much soul-searching I have decided to continue with my blog. I am definitely not giving up because I know I have so much more to say. So I am pleased to say this is not the last you will hear from me after all!
Candyfloss & Dreams